Here is the Paul update. I like him so far. i like that he's kind of shy and that he will say something funny with a straight face, i like that at the meetings that he talks to Fernando who is the only young kid in our hall and that he talks to Lula who a lot of time gets overlooked. The other day he said that he felt kind of useless in the hall but the fact that he shows personal interest in the friends means so much more than how many assignments he has.I think he really is a good person. He seems like the type that really thinks things thru and doesn't make rash decisions.He definitely thinks before he speaks and i trust what he says.So i don't really talk to him at the meetings. One reason is because i don't want people to think something is going on between us.It's kind of nice having a secret. A couple of weeks ago he did come up and say hello. So the next meeting i went up to him and talked for a few minutes. But during the conversation he looks around at the stage and says i don't want to miss the meeting for service. So i kind of took that as a blow - off. So i was pretty irritated after that. So Thursday at the meeting we don't talk even though we are only a few feet from each other. So later that night i text him and invite him over sunday for brunch and a movie. Well he texts back that he would love to come but he has to go upstate to visit his family. So i say that's too bad because we were going to rent rated r movies and smoke pot. So he says so it's a normal sunday afternoon then! So i told him that the next invite is on him and that was the end of the conversation.
The next morning he texts me and asks if i like jazz and would i be interested in going to listen to some that night. SO i said sure. So i went to his room after work and met his roommate who seems just like a big nerd. He starts speaking Japanese out of nowhere and Paul and I are like WHAT?! He's just a weirdo.
So then we meet up with Paul's friend Marion who i actually know because of my brother. My brother hates him, by the way. So we go in his car to this place called Garage, which is a bar/ music spot/ restaurant. It was nice. So Paul buys me a drink and i start talking about how i was supposed to go to a movie with Whitney and Tassy but i cancelled. So he says I am glad you came. Which was nice. So somehow we end up talking about older women and younger men. So i ask him what is the oldest that he would date and he says i can't answer that. So of course i ask why and he says because that leads to other questions. So i ask again and add that i won't ask anything else, just what's the oldest. So he answers 22, because i can mold them into what i want them to be. Which i thought was kind of funny. So in the car he is telling his friend that i like art and culture, which wasn't really a big deal but i thought it was kind of nice.
I find this whole thing frustrating and exciting. It is nice to have a crush on someone but at the same time it's frustrating because i don't know what he's thinking about the whole thing. I don't know if the whole dating conversation is even going to happen. He might just leave in october and not say a word. If that happens i will be dissapointed ( i think, unless i decide i don't like him).But if the dating conversation does happen, i think i will be nervous and a bit unsure about the whole thing.
I did think it was nice that thursday i told him that the next invite was on him and Friday he had something planned, especially since he had to leave early saturday morning to go upstate.
