When i drink i think my eyes become more sensitive to light.I can't really explain that. I am tired. I like it when your lips are dry and you press them together and it creates a seal and you have to force them open a little bit. A patient at work asked me out to dinner, i was so caught of guard, all i could say was, "I don't...I don't....I don't eat dinner!" in a very non-convincing way. It was a little embarassing.Sometimes sitting at a bar can be depressing. You just look at the people around you and think," Your life is probably really sad." Meanwhile, they are probably thinking the same thing about you. Sometimes i wish i could just go through life observing and not interacting. Sometimes i think my spinal cord and back muscles are disentigrating because my back bothers me most of the time. It sucks when you feel a connection with someone and you never get to find out if it was mutual.I like my bed. I hate it when people say, " I could care less!" instead of "i couldn't care less!"
At work the majority of what i say is just filler, it's just a lot of ,"yah, really, that's true, are you serious, wow"It's so pointless. I think i need to work on being quiet instead of justing filling the silence. I hate it when people can't separate sheets of paper, so they lick their finger, separate the paper, then hand you a copy. I am probably going to get carpal tunnel syndrome because of not using a mouse or a desk when i am on my computer. I hope i can survive nyc. I really don't like cats, i always think they are going to fly thru the air and scratch my face off.
This girl at work was complaining because she just replaced all the towels in the office and now they are all gone. She thought maybe the cleaning lady has taken all our paper towels. I told her we should do a full investigation. We need to set up surveillance in all the operatories, interview all our co-workers....I had this whole thing set up in my head. Sometimes i wish i was an actress or at least in a comedy troupe.The other day i was taking off a pair of pants and i just fell over on the floor. I was amused. I am dreading service tomorrow.It will be fine i am sure. I am a little numb right now.I need to work on being more sensitive and comforting to others, especially when they have lost a family member or friend. I hate when people say, "i am European" when they aren't European.
