I hope New York fits!

So in may or june of next year i want to move to nyc. I have been planning this for a while. Today i just started feeling overwhelmed about the whole thing. It's just so big and it just seems like too much to take on. I just know that i am probably going to hate the first few months. Everything will be so new. The only thing that is familiar is my friend, Christina. I know that when i finally get in the groove of living there and hopefully make some new friends, that i will feel like it was all worth it. It will be kind of nice to be out of my comfort zone. Standing on my own two feet ,without the safety net of my family,will be scary and liberating! So no matter what, i feel like i have to do this. I feel like this isn't where i am supposed to be. All of my life i have thought of just about everything as temporary(my job, where i live) but what was supposed to be temporary has lasted 9 yrs! I feel like if i don't do something now, i am just going to have to deal with the fact that this is my life! I would like to just feel settled in a place, i don't want to continue to think of everything as temporary and always thinking, "Well if i just lived here or worked there i would feel so much better." On the other hand, maybe i will never feel settled maybe i always will be searching for something more. Quien sabe! New York is like a dress that you see in a store. It seems really nice on the rack but until you try it on, you don't really know if it's going to fit. So i am going to try it on and see what happens. If it's too tight or just totally wrong then i will put it back on the rack and head home!