i think i am immature. I think my personal development stopped about 15 years ago. why don't i have my life together. Like, how come my room is always a mess, and my car is just a big garbage can. Why am i scatter- brained? Why do i not feel like an adult? I feel like other people just shake their head and think she needs to get it together. Why do others feel the need to lead me or tell me what to do. Why do i just go along with it?
So i think ny will be good for me in that it's an opportunity to start over. It's an opportunity to make the changes i need to make and have the relationships with other people that i want to have and just work on myself. Hopefully i will become a better person. I feel like i am spinning in a tornado. I dont' know the direction, i don't know where anything is in this tornado and i don't know how to get out of it.
