i hate my life and myself

i think i am losing my mind. this has been a terrible week. I hate my life. I think i might have a small bald spot because i keep pulling my hair out. i think it's just nervous energy. sometimes i feel like i am going to lose all my hair. I dont feel healthy. i am depressed and unmotivated. I had my period this week and i think it's the reason why i feel so bad. But i just feel like i have no self-control. i am not making my time i am not doing my personal study. i had a terrible week at work. i feel like a complete waste of a life. i feel like i am just going thru the motions when it comes to the truth. i have no goals my room isnt clean and i am tired. i will never get married. guys don't know i exist. i hate most of my clothes. my skin is bad. sometimes i feel like i am a complete fake.